It's been a tough first month for baby Jack. He has reflux and refuses to sleep anywhere except my chest or in one of our arms. I have officially moved to the couch for my nightly "slumber" and have made a pretty cozy area for myself. I have my cell phone, glasses, cup of water and a few US Weekly magazines for those long nightly feedings.
While I know "this too shall pass" I'm just praying I will survive the "this too" until that time comes. Even through this time, I can tell you that I love this baby more than words can describe. He is so precious and just fills me with happiness (except maybe when he's screaming between ten and midnight). I just love looking at his little round, butterball face. I think he might have even smiled with purpose this morning. I'm convincing myself he did because, well, I need it right now. Just a tiny acknowledgement that he knows me makes my sacrifice so worth it!