This picture will forever be etched in my mind and a part of my soul. This week has been hard. I'm still having a hard time pulling it together but each day is getting better. Last night at church, my friend Annie took Jack outside to play and then sent me this picture. I want to be like Jack.
All I see when I look at this picture is God's mercies shining through the clouds. Those rays of sun seem to be God welcoming Jack, who is running with open arms.
My mom said that when she was a little girl she thought those rays of light were God speaking. I wonder what He said to Jack? My guess is that whatever he said, Jack heard him.
That got me to wondering if I would hear Him. I am begging God for answers but I don't think I am allowing myself to listen to His response. How will I ever hear if I don't stop trying to fix my own problems. Ugh! I'm obviously a slow learner.
One of my favorite verses...I like to repeat it, and emphasize a different word each time. It's amazing how tone can change it's meaning...
ReplyDeleteThat is a BEAUTIFUL photograph! Gives me Goosebumps :-) You're in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful picture! Wish I could have been there with Jack. I have just been diagnosed with cancer and have had to give up the child I had just been matched with in the adoption. I think I need to be still and do some listening as there has to be a reason to the timing of my diagnosis.
ReplyDeleteThat is a totally fantabulous picture. LOVE it!
ReplyDeleteMaybe soon you will catch some rays! They are out there waiting!
ReplyDeleteKate, I have to be truthful and say that I believe in a higher power but I do not go to church every weekend. I will however say that this picture made me have goose bumps and tears all at the same time. That is just something that you do not see every day. Just amazing. I so wish I could meet you just to give you a hug. I know my hug would not make a difference but my heart hurts for Lucy and your whole family. You are just so honest and pure. You show the good days and you are not above letting us all in on the struggles. I am sending a cyber hug to you today and hoping that with each day something gets better. Thank you for just being you.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful!!! Can't stop looking at this...as I continue to fix my eyes and heart on this picture, I can see Jesus standing there waiting for Jack to run into His open arms. I, so many times want to do this very thing....just run into the open arms of Jesus!!
ReplyDeleteKate, it took me years to come to grips with my husbands diagnosis and aftermath....truly something hard for those to understand that don't live it daily....the saddness of loss is overwhelming let alone the new daily routines just to keep things going. I'm sending you a cyber hug and will be praying for you. It will get better, I promise!!
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ReplyDeleteA very dear friend gave me some wonderful advice once. She lost her 29 year old daughter to Cerebral Palsy. Crissy had been her whole life. She said the only thing that got her through it was God's word. She said when she opened her eyes and her feet hit the floor she began quoting scripture. She did this all during the day. So during my dark times that's exactly what I did. It helped tremendously. I still try to remember to do even though I fail many times. God's word is true and is so applicable to our lives. I didn't know a great deal of verses but I quoted the ones I knew over and over. Hope it will help you too. Hang in there Kate. You and your family are in my prayers. BTW, love love the picture of Jack. How precious.
Fitly spoke, Kate, fitly spoke. Amen and amen.
ReplyDeleteI love it! That describes most of us. Working so hard to fix it all the time. Amazing picture of Jack. I had a thought about you the other night. I kept wondering if it is guilt you are feeling? Are you expected to be elated about the miracle in Lucy while other children and their family have lost the fight or are currently living the torture? Is it so hard to celebrate when what you have seen and experienced is more like a war zone? I know you are so grateful that Lucy is cancer free ( I am too as I have grown to love her over the past 2 years) I just wonder if the result of all you have seen and experienced can cloud your joy. I pray for you today and that God will lead you to healing. My heart aches for you all.
ReplyDeleteWe ALL are Kate!!!
ReplyDeleteKate, I look at that picture and see God's radiant smile shining on Jack. And not just Jack but all of the Krull family.
ReplyDeleteKate, try to be more kind to yourself. You are struggling as any mother would in your situation.
I see God not walking beside you, but carrying you. Let him. He's got you in his loving arms. Try to fall back and relax and rely on him.
God Is Good.
Blessing and Prayers.
Kristi
WA State
You seem so sad...and I'm praying for you BIG TIME! I can't begin to imagine how frightening it must be...to watch Lucy and to wonder what her future holds. She is such a beautiful little girl and you have such a beautiful family. Please know that so many people are praying for all of you. I hope you can feel all the HUGS coming your way (and Lucy's way). Our God is a very good God!
ReplyDeleteThat's the BEST photo. It belongs in a book or on the front of a Hallmark card. Love it. Prayers for you and your family.
ReplyDeleteIt is hard to be still but oh so worth is. Take a lesson from Jack and run to God with open arms. Praying for you Kate...
ReplyDeleteI love this picture!! So pure and innocent. Praying for you Kate, you can not do this but He who is in you can and will do what is needed.
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Be still ... good advice. Please give yourself time. Try not to look too far into the future but embrace this moment, right now, just as Jack is in that beautiful photo. I'm praying for you, for a peaceful head and heart. God bless you.
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