8.15.2014

A Farewell to Sunny


Today I had to have Lucy's cat put to sleep.  It was one of the hardest things I've done.  Sunny, Lucy's cat of 18 months, was attacked by another cat and developed a really bad infection.  By the time we got him to the vet he was running a 106.1 temperature and was too far gone.  I know I made the merciful decision to put him down but it was agonizing none the less.  I was shaken.  

The cat had a sustained high fever, was starting to have seizures and had probably already suffered brain damage.  It all just hit too close to home.  Through this cat I was relieving the darkest, most painful time of Lucy's whole battle against cancer.  At one point in my life I was willing to let Lucy go.  I only wanted her suffering to stop.  

I spoke those words again today.  But this time it was for real.  There was no Lazarus moment.  Emotions from a depth I haven't visited in a long time resurfaced and I was forced to deal with them in a 10x10 clinic office.  

Some days are hard still.  Really, really hard. 

13 comments:

  1. Wow. So sorry, Kate....for the pain you all are feeling from losing a beloved pet...but also for reliving emotions no mom should ever have to feel. I rarelypost...but think of you often as one mom to another. I'm so sorry for the pain and agony you've been through over the past few years but please know that your faith, honesty, and openness have made a huge impact on my life! I will try and be more faithful in my prayers for you and your family...especially beautiful Lucy!

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  2. so sorry....this made me so sad for you and the family! sending up prayers!

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  3. I'm sorrier than words can say. I've been through this so many times with dogs. It's truly heartbreaking. Pets are so much a part of our family.

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  4. Sorry to hear about your heartbreaking and emotional day. Sending big hugs to both you and Lucy. xxx
    From Julie (In Australia)

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  5. I am so sorry.

    Becky in Brighton

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  6. I am so sorry about Lucy's kitten. God has used Lucy's Lazarus moment many times as we have witnessed to people who want to be "shown" what God has done. Becky in NC

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  7. Oh I am so sorry. May God be with you.

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  8. I am praying for you Kate. I can't imagine how hard it is to re-live those moments.

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  9. Oh Kate, I am so sorry to hear this. Making this choice for a beloved pet is always hard. Adding your perspective makes it so much worse.

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  10. Oh my, I am in tears. I am so very sorry and (((HUGS))) to Lucy and you :(
    I am FINALLY back in the blogging world, obviously I have LOTS to catch up on. My url has changed to: www.flipflopspearlsandwine.com
    Love & Blessings, Daph

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  12. Kate I have followed your blog for some time (in Australia) I was so sorry to hear you lost Lucy's little cat and the sadness you felt. You are an inspiration to so many I am sure.

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