10.29.2012

Another Day Here



Well, we are wrapping up another night on the 7th floor. Thankfully everything major has been ruled out. Head CT looked good, CSF was clear, and nothing has come back from blood cultures to be of concern. Lucy probably was just the recipient of a yucky stomach bug and she's just had a little harder time fighting it than most. She is receiving lots of fluids and an antibiotic through her IV.

My sweat husband brought my computer down tonight and I planned on spending some time on it after Lucy went to bed. I was going to go through pictures of our summer trips that I haven't even blogged about and then I wanted to spend some time writing on the blog in general. So here I am, computer ready, brain in gear and the computer network is down at the hospital. Oh well. Maybe this is Gods way of making me take advantage of this chance to sleep.

I am praying we go home tomorrow but I worry that is a bit optimistic. Until Lucy can keep anything on her stomach, she will have to be here with fluids. To be honest, as sick as her tummy is right now I don't even want to take her home. I just know that she will be so upset if she misses Trick or Treating and our church's Fall Fest. I can't recreate the church event, but neighbors listen up! Lori, Mrs. Sharon, Mrs. Smith, everyone in the hood....we may be trick or treating later this week. Don't get rid of your candy and decorations too soon!
Lucy with Aunt Tracy and our new friend from the 7th floor

In all seriousness, I know Lucy is where she needs to be. We will stay as long as they deem necessary. Today I was glad I was here. I met and visited with an amazing family whose 4 year old, blond hair beauty just had surgery to remove a large brain tumor. I'm not sure what their future holds as far as a treatment plan, but I do know that their angel was given a great start for fighting this past week. I feel honored to have met them and I'm grateful our paths crossed.

The mom told me today that she had read my blog right after Lu was diagnosed. She said she remembered thinking "I can't imagine ever walking in her shoes." She never, in a million years, thought she would be here today. That's how life works though.  I believe that God uses our whole lives to ready us for big events so that when we are confronted with the task, we are prepared to handle it.  Maybe not for everyone in every situation, but I feel that's what He did for me.  I told the dad tonight that 1 week or 1 month or 1 year down the road he would look back on things and realize that God had been working in their lives to prepare them for this journey.  Even now, I can look back on the past 15 years and see that my life has played out like an unbelievable story.  So many circumstances and situations have played a part in readying us for this stage in our life.  Even today, I feel as if this family and my paths crossed for a very specific reason.  I just hope I was able to offer even a tiny bit of encouragement or support.



I'll never understand cancer and I'll really never understand why it happens to children.  People often say that when you get to heaven all those questions you had for God would be forgotten.  After the hell on earth that I have lived, I'm not sure I believe that.  I'm pretty sure I'll at least have to ask "Why children?"  I'm thankful there is a heaven and I'm thankful my spot is secured.  Questions or no questions, I know that this world is temporary and there IS something better.

19 comments:

  1. You are amazing, and you understand what life is all about. Thank you to you and Lucy for reminding us all.

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  2. I am so glad to hear the tests came back normal! Thank You Lord! Continuing to pray.
    I agree with you, something better is waiting for us in heaven. It will be wonderful and I also believe God will answer all of our questions and we then will understand and will come to agreement with Him.


    Blessings and rest well.
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  3. Praying and thank you for sharing your heart.

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  4. Hi, Kate! My name is Leah, and I facebooked you about the family you met. That is one of my precious friends from high school. She emailed me today so excited to have met y'all. You were a real encouragement! Thanks for taking time to encourage them about Ava!

    Leah
    Casaconfident.blogspot.com

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  5. Kate, I can only hope that Lucy gets better real soon. I hope your neighbors will have there doors oened wide for her no matter what day she comes knocking. You all can not seem to catch a break. She has been looking so good I can only hope this was a little tiny stomach bug and she bounces back super quick. I can not wait for Halloween pictures.

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  6. Kate, It wouldn't surprise me to learn that Lucy goes home today or tomorrow. Like you, I think you were there because someone was going to need your optimism, your hope and experiences. Someone needed to SEE that God really IS everywhere, He IS in control. and that can be so hard to realize when walking your particular road.
    Yesterday He made you, once more, the hands and feet of Christ to someone that needed it.
    Keeping Lucy and family in prayer.. grace and peace to you.

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  7. Praying that sweet little Lucy to be feeling better and home by Halloween! But it sounds like you have some awesome neighbors who will be happy to recreate the evening for her! Take care and God Bless!

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  8. Oh, Kate, what a yo-yo life you are living. Praying for you because I know not only is it hard, but it just seems to go on and on. I know God is the glue that is holding you together (My song-writer granddaughter is writing a song about that.), but that He has a vast amount of confidence in you.

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  9. Vicki from ArlingtonOctober 30, 2012 at 8:09 AM

    I believe that God takes all of our little stories and weaves them together to complete His Big Story. He uses us in ways that we would never have imagined. Kate, you are being used in a mighty way. Blessings today and always,.

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  10. I love reading your posts, especially when you talk about life preparing you for life moments you never in a million years thought you'd be in. Life is interesting -- there are no guarantees ... ever. You are a blessing to many, not only your own family and friends, but to strangers -- like the family you met tonight. Continue to do what you're doing, Kate. I think you're powerful.

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  11. I am still praying for Lucy and your family. Your blog and testimony is such an inspiration to all. So glad to hear that Lucy just has a stomach bug, (gosh...I almost feel bad saying "glad she has a stomach bug"...but in the grand scheme, it's a blessing!) Love to you all! www.btwilli.blogspot.com

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  12. Continuing prayers for you all, and also praying for Ava. We live in Florida now, but through our home church in Memphis, I learned of Ava. I know you will be a blessing to her family. Go Lucy Go!

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  13. It sounds silly to write, but when my daughter died 7 weeks ago, the funeral director said that Heaven wouldn't be nearly as wonderful a place with no children there. At the time, my thought was "why my child", but as a little time has passed that statement makes me smile. Like you, I'll never know why, but I know that I can't wait to see my child again one day.
    Praying for a quick recovery for sweet Lucy!

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  14. Oh my goodness, leave you alone for a few days and look what happens! I hope you are home by now, but really, if you're not, you are where you need to be. Prayers for Miss Lucy and for the whole family. Take care and stay strong!

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  15. So glad things look good and hope Lucy will be home soon..xoxo

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  16. I am so sorry that you lost your little girl Andrea, I will pray for your family...xoxo

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  17. so glad out paths crossed for sure. I never check FB so I'm sorry I didn't get your message.

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  18. I wanted to respond in a more personal email, but I can't find it. Andrea, I am so sorry for your loss. I have been so very close to walking in your shoes but I could never say I know how you feel. I am praying that the peace that only God can bring you will fill your heart tonight. May He cover you with a blanket of mercy tonight.

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  19. That's ok! I know that you have lots and lots of people who talk to you. She is just now starting on this hard journey, and the first thing I told her was...you need to meet Kate Krull! I don't even know Kate, but I know you need to meet her. I think it was a divine appointment. I'm so sorry Lucy is sick. I pray for y'all every day. Now I'm praying for Ava, too. Thank you for your faith, and your willingness to be so open.


    Leah

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