8.02.2012

Humility

As I wait for Lucy to return to me from her procedure, I am ashamed. Three different moms have come up to me today, recognizing me from this blog, having prayed for my daughter for so long. Now fighting their own battles. Totally submerged in their own fear, yet still telling me that they are praying for Lucy.

I am humbled. I am unworthy of their prayers. All I had to offer was a hug of compassion and a few tears of support. Especially for Reeds mother. I could hardly find the words to say. Just tears.

How many days have I walked through these halls lately so totally consumed with my own worries and quite honestly mad about being here that I have forgotten the others? There are so many here. Children suffering . Parents greiving.

But this is the place of hope, and I tell these new mothers this. May God bless and have mercy on them all.


21 comments:

  1. Bless ALL of you!!!!!!!!!

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  2. It was a total blessing to meet you. I hated to bother you, but thanks for the hug and being there to listen. Love, Amy Kiger (Reid's mom)

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  3. You are loved by hundreds of people who pray for you daily. Don't be so hard on yourself. You wear many hats, as other mothers around you do. You have reached out many times to other mothers and have blogged about it. You have so much to be thankful for in your life. Jesus wants us to pray for others, and I know you do that many times each day. Please allow others to care for you in the name of Jesus, just as you care for others in the same way. I will certainly pray for you in the coming days as I have in the part. Love to all, Pat Williams, a grandmother in Tuscaloosa

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  4. I don't think anyone could express it better than you just did. I believe a full range of emotions depicts the experiences of everyone who enters the doors of the hospitals you have been in the last 2 years. You deserve the prayers of other and they are grateful to receive yours.

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  5. as i say a prayer for ur Lucy 2day just know that ur shared post of ur journey has touched many & made a better person of who ever reads ur post. hope u hear good news 2day & Lucy feels better each day. take care & always know that others are praying for ur family. :)) love from dyersburg Vicky Autry

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  6. Michelle from AustraliaAugust 2, 2012 at 5:22 PM

    May you feel the prayers we offer for your family and may they give you some comfort as you forge ahead. I feel Blessed to be in the 'Legion of Lucy'.

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  7. I bet your hugs an prayers were so appreciated, as I pray for Lucy I am humbled also...and realize how small my "problems" really are. May the Lord bless you an your sweet family, especially Lucy (and all of the people God put in your path today). I am praying for clean scans for Lucy!!!

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  8. You are HUMAN - it's ok to be human. Prayers continue for your Lu and for all the babies, kids, moms and dads who walk in your family's shoes. You are all in my prayers.

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  9. your posts are a comfort to all. to everyone with or without sick children! you should not feel ashamed but be grateful you touch so many lives with your blogs! that my friend helps these parents in ways you may never know!
    we will continue to pray for sweet Lucy, you and your family and of course all of the children and families at St. Jude...a place Memphis and surrounding areas is so thankful to have at our doorstep!

    praying you get a good nights rest and can enjoy a bday dinner!

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  10. Kate, I wish you were not so hard on yourself, Lucy is going through alot but yyou all as a family are going through alot too. I am sure that you may have walked through the halls feeling that way but I am sure that you hsve given so many people hugs and prayers. Give yourself a big hug

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  11. Carrie in S. FloridaAugust 2, 2012 at 9:49 PM

    Prayers for clear scans!!!! :)

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  12. God knows your heart. He understands, and so do the other Mom's. I often wonder, how you do all that, you have to do. I find myself praying, for you and your family to have lots of rest and peaceful nights. I pray for Lucy, but I know she is covered in prayer, so I find myself asking God to just let you have rest and peaceful nights of sleep. Every time I think of the saying, that God doesn't put on us more than we can handle, I think of you. You just need to stop and love yourself more. You are an outstanding person, and I think you give out more love than what you realize. I will continue to pray for rest, peace, and for Lucy to adjust to starting school. I know little Jack will get well, he is so cute, and so healthy looking. He has just had a lot of changes these last few weeks, and his little body is tired. God bless all of you. You do have one wonderful husband, be thankful, so many don't have that.

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  13. Kate... you and your family are an inspiration to all of us.....your compassion for others is totally amazing......

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  14. Your precious merciful heart is so evident Kate. You still remember so well the trials that you have been through and can be such an encouragement to those that are just beginning this journey. Rejoice in the glorious work of God and let His light shine through you!

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  15. Often when we are in our own space of sorrow, it is impossible to see anyone else's pain. That is not selfish Kate....that is HUMAN!!! I bet if I asked any of those mom's, all of them would praise you for your kindness and empathy. Please don't be too hard on yourself Kate. You truly are AMAZING and I can't tell you how often I am humbled by YOU!!! You have so much going on Kate....I'm sure it can be very overwhelming, I guess the best we can do is just take 1 step at a time and be grateful for our blessings along the way!!! xo

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  16. Hi Kate,
    I am a grade two teacher in Vancouver, Canada and this has already probably come up in discussions but sometimes it is hard to see the forest for the trees. Does your school have any split classes? We have a split Kind./Grade One this year. This arrangement would allow Lucy's educational needs to be met and challenged when ready as well as allowing her to stay with her little friends who are going into grade one. If my child, I am hoping to adopt but keep striking out, were best friends with Lucy and going into grade one, I would gladly for Lucy's sake have them be in a K/1. Usually parents don't like their children being the older child in a split like this, but for Lucy, well I think we would all do pretty much anything to help this little girl who has been through so much recover.
    Elizabeth

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  17. Dear Kate,

    Don't be so hard on yourself! You are an amazing inspiration to 1000's of us round the globe :) Praying for you and the new moms from Sydney.

    xxxxxxNicole

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  18. Don't be ashamed, be proud that you are brave enough to share your story openly with complete strangers. We love you for that! Maybe you could create a prayer list on your blog and those people could be added to the prayers of all of us praying for you!

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  19. Lucy looks fabulous and so happy! Praying for a lifetime of smiles from your sweet girl! She's lucky to have you and your strength on her team fighting for her health and happiness every step of the way. You are amazing mother.

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  20. Oh hon, don't be so hard on yourself. You are such a caring, loving person and I just know how supportive you are to those that are suffering around you.

    Lifting you up and those that are placed on your heart.

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  21. Dear Kate,
    As a mom we all get caught up in our own lives and you shouldn't be so down on yourself. As I have been following your blog for sometime, I am in constant awe of how you keep going. On my craziest of days I have to stop and think how my worries of being a Mom could always be "bigger". You inspire so many people to keep moving one foot in front of the other. About 10 yrs ago I was in similar shoes, not the same but familar territories of fighting for my childs life and wellness. She was in a car accident, flown to LeBonheur and had rcvd multiple breaks & a severe brain injury even tho she
    was buckled in. They told us she may never walk or talk again, never to b the same child. I felt like I was staring the devil in the eye, those were downright scary times. After alot of hard work, tons of prayers & a long recovery, she was able to start school on time and is now top of her class. Drs are amazed as they look at what could have been as they had diagnosed and what is now. She is now your avg tween, cheerleading, dancing, sassy social butterfly..... "normal" in society terms but, to me she will always be extraordinary and a miracle. Your Lucy is a fighter and you are her biggest fan. Continue your battle, jus remember to breathe, you are human and can't be so hard on yourself. Many prayers and blessings to you Kate, sweet Lucy and your families! <3
    Love,
    Bootheel Mom

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