I am exhausted. It's been another long day. The biggest news of the day is that the Opthamologist came in today and did an eye exam on Lucy. He did not detect any acute optic nerve damage. In other words, he did not see any damage that would lead to permanent eye loss. PRAISE GOD!!!! Lucy was able to see a few more things today but still has significant eye loss. If all the doctors are right, this problem will eventually correct itself. We just have no idea how long it will take. In the mean time I have one frustrated and scared little girl.
Tomorrow is a new day. We are expecting God's miracles to be revealed further. Just as today. Just as yesterday. Lucy will start PT, OT and Speech tomorrow. These will be in very abbreviated formats but now is the time to start pushing her to see just how hard she is willing to fight. I know she's got it in her. I can see it in her eyes. I really can.
Ella had a swim meet tonight and I have gotten report from Erik that she totally dominated the pool. Especially in her 25m Butterfly. I am insanely proud of her!!
I'm so ready to get my hands on Jack that I can hardly stand it. Oh, I miss him terribly. Being away from my precious children is absolutely heart breaking.
Thank you for your continued prayers. I have to admit to all of you that your faith is so much greater than mine. I have been shamed and humbled by how thousands of people around the world never stopped praying for a miracle for my Lucy. I, however, was only able to pray for mercy and no suffering. Why wasn't I praying for a miracle? Had I really stopped believing God could provide one? I'm not sure. But if I ever had doubts I have been reminded that the child I was ready to bury 4 days ago looked at me today and told me she loved me. Unsolicited. Because she does.
I have faith. I believe in miracles. I serve an awesome God. I will never, ever stop praying for Lucy's miracle.