11.16.2011

Apology

To all of you who have diligently followed Lucy's journey over the past 8 months, I feel I owe you an apology.  My blogging this week has been all but non-existent.  It's not that I don't want to.  It's just that, super honestly, I just can't get in the mood to do it.  And what's interesting is that things have been going really well here.  Great, actually.  My overall outlook on life has improved and Lucy is rocking along beautifully.  I just can't make myself sit down and write.  Maybe it's like a writer having writer's block.  Except my block is a self-inflicted don't-want-to-discuss-life block.  I think maybe its just that I've poured my life onto these keys almost every day for 8 months and I'm just a little worn out.  Either way, I'm not complaining (as I have nothing to complain about), just apologizing. 

I had a great post with pictures and updates, but out of respect for my dear friends I am chosing not to post it tonight.  All I would ask is that when you finish this, please say a prayer or have a moment of silence for our dear friends Brandon and Tessie.  Cancer is an evil monster and it won its battle this morning in Lanie's life.  As Christians, her parents can cling to the HOPE that Jesus gives knowing that they will be reunited with their daughter again one day.  For the first time in months, their precious daughter was free of pain when she entered the arms of Jesus. 

Hope is an interesting word.  As a St. Jude mom, I will forever be changed by that word.  You see, Hope is the motto of St. Jude.  It's the very core of its existence.  That hospital has given thousands of children Hope when the rest of the world turned its back on them.  Hope is what motivates the doctors, nurses and researchers who have devoted their life's work to sick children.  Hope is what encourages donors to contribute their hard-earned money so that more children may find Hope.  St. Jude gives me Hope, but my God gives me more. 

Tonight I pray that Lanie's family will rest in their Hope in Jesus Christ, just as I place my Hope in Him each and every day. 

Lucy is scheduled to have her line removed at 11:00 tomorrow, pending good blood work.  She will not be sedated for this procedure and it is going to be a tough one.  I will post again tomorrow with a line-reomval update. 



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14 comments:

  1. My daughter had a central line removed when she was 2 years old and I just had knots in my stomach before her surgeon pulled it, but it ended up being a very quick and simple pull. She barely flinched. I know Lucy is older and probably has a little more anxiety about it, but I will pray that it will be quick and painless for her. It's such a relief to not have to worry about all that cleaning and dressing changing. Praying for you and your family.

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  2. PLEASE dont ever apology for not posting with or without pics. You are going thru so much and I pray that God will hold you and your family in the Palm of His Hand. We love hearing about your journey but also respect your nonsaying anything. Warm Hugs Pam am praying for Lanie's family so very hate and also hard to understand God's ways at all.

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  3. I've been reading your story, and lanies. My heart goes out to both of you. You are such strong families.

    Bonnie Weiss.

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  4. Do not feel the need to apologize for anything your time with family is precious
    We know that no news can only be good news for Lucy. You always have it in you to activate your prayer warriors when an extra dose is needed. Knowing Lanie's Family is living your worst nightmare is enough to wrapped your heart and head around. You have done a phenomenal job of keeping the blog updated. You deserve a break to just get in to the grove of the new normal. We will be here when you need us.

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  5. Please never apologize. You have opened up your heart and offered so much by writing of Lucy's journey over the last 8 months. It is such a tough day for you today. All our love from Sydney, Australia.

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  6. Praying for your friends and for Lucy's line removal tomorrow <3

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  7. You never need to apologize - you have to do what you can and sometimes, it's not blogging. As a writer, I know that block that happens, and I don't have a sick child to take care of when I write. Do it when you can and know we are praying for Lucy and your family all the time. So glad things are going well for Lucy and will pray that she gets through her line removal ok. And prayers continue for Lanie's family.

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  8. Don't be hard on yourself! As much as I love reading your posts, I had rather you be busy with your family doing life!

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  9. Kate, You dont have to apologize. I have been following Lucy's journey and also have HOPE for Lucy and the other children at St Jude. Praying for Laney's family. Take care.

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  10. Oh my gosh, don't ever feel like you need to apologize! All of us following each other's blogs should know that sometimes you just don't have it in you to write and it isn't necessarily because anything bad has happened. Glad to hear all is going well, and hoping you relax and enjoy the holidays - blogging should take a second to living your life!!

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  11. Don't ever feel the need to apologize!! We all love reading your updates and we all keep Lucy and the rest of the fam in our prayers. Seeing you absent for a few days makes me HOPE that you are enjoying your time with the kids, and getting extra loves and kisses and hugs from your kids :)

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  12. This blog is for you, not for us. We just happen to be here following along.

    I recommend the book 'Nine Days in Heaven' for your friends. I think it will help a little bit with their loss.

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  13. Kate,
    I am like the others, please, please, we so respect your time with your family and we see it at no news is good news.
    We are so thankful that life is moving smoothly at this point. We will be praying for Lucy to have an uneventful surgery tomorrow.
    It breaks my heart for Lanie's family but know that she is no longer in pain. God has a special little angel with Him today, but it is still sad.
    Thank you for your update and enjoy your sweet family this weekend.

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  14. Please don't ever apologize. It's been a privilege & a blessing to share in your life through your posts, but you don't owe anyone anything. No matter what, our prayers will be with you & your family.

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