Apology

To all of you who have diligently followed Lucy's journey over the past 8 months, I feel I owe you an apology.  My blogging this week has been all but non-existent.  It's not that I don't want to.  It's just that, super honestly, I just can't get in the mood to do it.  And what's interesting is that things have been going really well here.  Great, actually.  My overall outlook on life has improved and Lucy is rocking along beautifully.  I just can't make myself sit down and write.  Maybe it's like a writer having writer's block.  Except my block is a self-inflicted don't-want-to-discuss-life block.  I think maybe its just that I've poured my life onto these keys almost every day for 8 months and I'm just a little worn out.  Either way, I'm not complaining (as I have nothing to complain about), just apologizing. 

I had a great post with pictures and updates, but out of respect for my dear friends I am chosing not to post it tonight.  All I would ask is that when you finish this, please say a prayer or have a moment of silence for our dear friends Brandon and Tessie.  Cancer is an evil monster and it won its battle this morning in Lanie's life.  As Christians, her parents can cling to the HOPE that Jesus gives knowing that they will be reunited with their daughter again one day.  For the first time in months, their precious daughter was free of pain when she entered the arms of Jesus. 

Hope is an interesting word.  As a St. Jude mom, I will forever be changed by that word.  You see, Hope is the motto of St. Jude.  It's the very core of its existence.  That hospital has given thousands of children Hope when the rest of the world turned its back on them.  Hope is what motivates the doctors, nurses and researchers who have devoted their life's work to sick children.  Hope is what encourages donors to contribute their hard-earned money so that more children may find Hope.  St. Jude gives me Hope, but my God gives me more. 

Tonight I pray that Lanie's family will rest in their Hope in Jesus Christ, just as I place my Hope in Him each and every day. 

Lucy is scheduled to have her line removed at 11:00 tomorrow, pending good blood work.  She will not be sedated for this procedure and it is going to be a tough one.  I will post again tomorrow with a line-reomval update.