2.24.2011

In the Blink of an Eye


Life can change. In the blink of an eye. It happens. You are never prepared for it. And when it does you just try to survive. And that's what we are doing right now. Surviing. I am going to use this blog to update Lucy's status and track her recovery so that one day she can look back at what she went through and know how much her mommy loves her. Tomorrow morning at 7:00am the staff at LeBonheur Children's Hospital will come get my baby girl for the biggest event of her life. 4-6 hours of a grueling surgical procedure to remove 3 brain tumors and 1 tumor from her back.

Every time I allow myself to think about it I want to vomit. It doesn't seem real. Last night when I went to sleep I prayed that when I woke up this would all be a bad dream. Funny thing is, I never slept. So I feel as if I have been in a walking nightmare for 2 days. Tomorrow is going to be hard for us all. I don't think any of us are really prepared for the rollercoaster we are about to ride.

I just don't understand why it had to be Lucy. I could understand why God would want to put this disease on me. I have had 33 years to live a sinful life. I DESERVE to suffer. But not Lucy. She's only 5. But that's not how God works. I know that. There's a reason for all of this. I will NEVER understand it, but that's not my job. My job is to remain faithful and trust that God will heal my sweet girl. Medulloblastoma is no match for my Father. I will praise Him in this storm while I cling to the hope that He will extend his hand of mercy and grace to Lucy in the days, weeks and months to come.

22 comments:

  1. Kate, I have been up last 2 nights praying for you,Erik,Ella,Jack, and sweet Lucy. My heart is broken sweetie. I just want to wake up from this with you and it not be real like you said. I love u. Wish I could be there you have no idea how much you and your family helped me. Uncle Paul and Aunt Nancy as well and my heart ans my prayers are just being poured out before the Lord. May He give you all wisdom,strength,rest,peace,comfort,
    and I pray He holds y'all in His Hands and calms the storms.Yes Jesus loves me the Bible tells me so.

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  2. Praying extra measures of mercy and grace as well as Romans 12:12 for you, Lucy and family this morning----that you would be joyful in hope, patient in affliction and fervent in prayer.
    Blessings, Dotsy (Molly Liles Kennedy's mom)

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  3. Kate, your words above fill me with so much emotion. I know that as a mom, you would do anything for your kids--and that you would take this from Lucy in a heartbeat if you could. I'm so grateful that you and Erik are faithful, that you know our God won't fail you. You are so right that we may never know how or why...that we may never understand His timing and purpose, but you know that He's got you in this. I am so overwhelmed with the desire to do something...I want to be able to help you and I feel completely helpless. All I have at this moment is constant prayer, and I'm committing to that. Right now I'm praying for Lucy during the surgery, for the doctors, for peace and comfort for you and Erik, and for total and complete healing. Much love to Lucy.
    Love, Holly Richardson

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  4. Kate, my heart breaks for you and your family. I pray that God will work through the surgeons this morning to help heal Lucy. You all are in our thoughts and prayers. Please if there is anything we can do, please do not hesitate to ask. I know that we are far away but you all are in our constant thoughts. Love to you all.

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  5. Lucy is going to have an awesome testimony - just like her Nanny. Miraculous healing from our Father! What a privilege you're giving us to walk through this journey with your family and see God at work. He's already using Lucy to bring so many people to their knees.

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  6. Wow! I am a friend of a friend, but I wanted you to know that your family will remain in my thoughts and prayers. I have a daughter the same age, and cannot even begin to fathom your pain right now. I pray that your baby girl will come through all this triumphantly. I know she is a precious piece of your family.

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  7. Our girls know about spinal surgeries at a young age but not cancer. We will all, as a family, be praying for Lucy and your family! God is still in control and loves all of our children more than we can love them. Praying for you both to have God's peace while you wait during the surgery today.
    Carmen Pfeifer

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  9. know that i have prayed continuously for lucy. it's just made me sick. you're right, when children are sick or facing HUGE life challenges it just doesn't make sense...and doesn't seem fair. your faith is incredible. God will see Lucy through this. she is such a tough little chick, and i KNOW she can beat this. hang in there friend, you are loved by so many and i can't even imagine how many are praying for her.

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  10. You dont know me, but I heard about what yall are going thru..my heart is breaking at the thought of living with the pain in your heart right now. Our babies are the world to us and you can count on me..an unknown mom..to pray my heart out for you.

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  11. We started our blog as our son was having one of his brain surgeries. Who is the neurosurgeon?

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  12. I agree, no sweet 5 year old should have to to through this. Prayers for you, your family and Sweet Lucy. I am adding you to my google reader to keep track of her. I also follow another blog who lost their daughter and they now have a research foundation. Here is the link:http://www.facebook.com/#!/laylagracefoundation

    Not sure if they can help or not.

    Prayers and {{HUGGS}} from St. Louis.

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  13. Lifting sweet Lucy up to the Father right now.

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  14. You probably don't know me, Sparky Fields, but we played against you guys last week in the 1st/2nd grade basketball league at Oak Grove. Please know that many folks in Tipton County are Praying for your Angel, Lucy, and you guys - specifically the Young Couples Class at Covington Assembly of God. God please take care of Lucy and Comfort this family.

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  15. I do not know you but I have seen prayer requests for your daughter and family from the FaithWalk community, from Gateway Baptist in Atoka and all over FB. It seems that our paths might have crossed but I'm not sure. I just wanted you to know that you, Lucy and your family are in my prayers. It is a hard thing to watch the doctors take your child away for surgery. My daughter had surgery at 8 months old on her skull and I will never forget how I felt that day. We are possibly looking at another surgery and I'm worried all over again. I will be checking back for updates on sweet Lucy.

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  16. Waiting for good news and praying I will hear it soon. I am praying for all of you and for Lucy's doctors. I know you are in good hands at St. Jude.

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  17. Thankful that our God is the Great Physician and is in control! God is good all the time! Keep your faith and remember Jeremiah 29:11 tells us that God has a plan for each of us.
    You are facing difficult days and you find yourself questioning God and even your own lives. Know that this is a normal feeling of anyone that has dealt with this horrible disease. We battled these emotions when we battled cancer with my mom. I cannot imagine what you must feel having your own small child enduring this horrible monster. Your family and friends are here for you and will be your source when you feel you can't go on but God is there when no one else can be.He is there with His little angel Lucy and will keep watch over her when you can't. Stay strong and keep your faith! God is in control!

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  18. Embracing you and your family. Hugs from afar, Kara

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  19. Lifting up your family in prayer. God Bless Lucy!

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  20. I don't know you but a blog I follow listed the address for your blog and asked for prayer for y'all! Defenitly praying for y'all! I wish there was something I could come do for y'all personally! Lots of luv and prayers!

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  21. I don't know your family either, but a friend's blog linked me here. Please know your family is in my prayers.

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