Thou, Oh Lord - The Brooklyn Tabernacle Choir

I am so insanely tired.  Seriously.  I can hardly breathe much less put together a coherent thought.  I was going to check one email and then I came across this post from my friend Amy.  Apparently at our church this morning the choir sang the song below.  My mother swore she thought they were all about to go up in Rapture.  Oh, Lord how I wish that were true so my precious Lucy did not have to suffer like she is.  As I sit hear and type I am crying tears of gratitude.  So thankful that God laid it upon Amy to post that song so that I could hear it.  Oh how I wish I could have been in worship this morning, singing to God with my hands raised.  My soul is yearning to be filled right now.  Music has always been a big part of my life, and I worship best through music.  My dad brought a radio up to our room so that I could listen to praise music but Lucy's head hurts too bad for me to listen to it. I need to remember to get my headphones from home...

Lucy had a bad pain day today.  She wants so badly to be out of her bed and screams with frustration when she remembers she can't walk.  Her stamina just won't allow her to sit up very long at all and she has been so sick that we've gotten very behind in PT.  Please pray that we would be able to start back with PT tomorrow.  Tomorrow is her 5th birthday.  I've been pretty down in the dumps about it today to be honest with you.  I had to change my perspective, however, when my new friend Hope reminded me that I should consider this Lucy's best birthday because she is alive to celebrate it.  She is so right.  Lucy has a nasty, nasty cancer and is a very sick little girl.  But she is here. She is alive and just perfect in my eyes.  Praise God!!!!

Just wanted to share a Facebook posting from our new friend Tracy.  She is Dr. Boop's nurse practitioner and right hand woman.  To me, she is more than that.  She has been a friend, a confidant, a shoulder to cry on and someone I can trust.  She's not going to give us the run around about anything and will be with us until the very end.  God put her in our life for a reason.  She's a Christian lady and I believe that God is working through her to give us hope and reassurance:

For all of you out there on Lucy's journey...let me introduce myself...I like to be called Aunt Tracy...aka....Dr Boop's NP....This little girl has won her battle...victory has been claimed...we just have to travel this road with her so she can become the Lady - Christ desires.....So tonight in your prayers...thank Him for the victory won and strength for the road....TT

                          

I took the liberty of copying the words for the song below that Amy had written out on her blog.  I encourage you to listen to this song and really listen to the words.  Erik and I were just laying on our tiny little couch together, trying to steal away a quite moment to reconnect, and I told him that tonight I felt empty.  I am exhausted on all levels.  I am praying tonight that God would refill my tank and fill me with His spirit for the days ahead.  He knows I can't do it alone.





Many are they increased that troubled me

Many are they that rise up gainst me
Many there be which say of my soul
There is no help for him in God

But thou, oh Lord are a shield for me
My glory and the lifter of my head
Thou, oh Lord are shield for me
My glory and the lifter of my head

I cried unto the Lord with my voice
And he heard me out of His holy hill
I laid me down and slept and awaked
For the Lord sustained, for He sustained me

Thou, oh Lord are a shield for me
My glory and the lifter of my head
Thou, oh Lord are shield for me
My glory and the lifter of my head



Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, and help you, I will uphold you with My righteous hand." -Isaiah 41:10